But, and I know this is normal, this happy, fun day, was clouded with sadness too. Yesterday marked 8 weeks since we first held YuanYuan. 8 weeks since he became ours, and yet he never really was ours, as our children are just gifts to love for a short time. But 8 weeks ago we all fell in love with a little boy that we didn't even know we needed.
Every new experience that we have with Julia...I miss him. Every day...I think of him. And last night, I cried for him like I did the first few days after he died. It was the ugly, unstoppable, can't breathe cry that physically hurt. Only my God can heal this pain.
A day of new joys, and extreme pain. But I choose to trust that this is where He wants me to be.
“Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am in distress; my eye is wasted from grief” (Psalm 31:9)
"Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted. Matthew 5:4
ReplyDeleteMy sweet baby sister... I love you so much and my heart aches with you for our loss of YuanYuan. Please know that I continue to pray for you daily. I love you.
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
Erica, my name is Hannah. I am an adoptive mom waiting to bring our children home from Poland. I have jury duty this week and lucked out sitting next to your mom in the waiting room. We became quick friends and have enjoyed swapping stories. I wanted to say hello and let you know that we are praying for your sweet family. Grateful for the way God works in sitting your mom and I next to each other.
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